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Dondon is his name.. weee! the name may sound funny but to me its melodic! can't stop smiling really.. I feel like a kid.. I haven't felt this for a long time.. I really really really really really really like dondon.. thanks to Paolo and Sir Eisen.. :) they helped me figure out his name.. I wish to see him soon.. haha :) (as if he likes you erika! as if!) i don't know what to do now.. I know his name but I don't want this to stop to that.. haha :) I'm really happy today!

I had to study for an exam earlier but I couldn't.. I read the same page from Alabang to Dasma.. I was smiling alone.. I felt really weird today! I went on and on about how much I like Dondon.. Every single person who comes near me gets a dose of Dondon! :) I wish to see him soon.. hihi :)

This is more than a crush right? I cant believe so into someone whom I haven't even talked to.. weird!

How can you be so into someone when you haven't even had a real conversation with him? darn it! I'm so frustrated.. he's married! I can't believe this! but it's alright.. I'm friggin' sure I'll get over him soon (right Kai?).. Gosh! he looks like Southborder's Vince.. aaarrrggghhh!

At last! another post! haven't gone posting since Tuesday.. there is really so much to tell about the past few days.. whew! long week! But I'll just write the significant ones..

Yesterday, my band had a gig.. Moonstar 88 and Parokya ni Edgar was there together with all other bands from La Salle.. This was for the "We Are One" peace and unity concert.. Chito was really cute.. Though not that cute, he has sex appeal.. a great deal of it! Anyway, April and I failed to snatch a picture of him which was the sad part of this story.. we went backstage but they were gggggg-gone! haha!

Our performance yesterday was the cream above all our performances.. we all did well.. Plus! Vince the-married-guy was there.. My bestfriend and my barkada didn't attend class to watch the concert.. it was fun seeing them thumpin' to our band's rhythms. I must admit they made my performance better.. Love you guys!

Today? hmmm.. I was with _ _ _ _ _ earlier.. he was so not the guy I knew before.. the closeness we had was I think thrown away to Yugoslavia.. sad thought.. I miss him! The old him rather.. Before, just the thought of having him as a close friend drove all my worries away..

My bestfriend is really having a hard time right now.. I wanna hug her really tight.. how come we people can get really stupid sometimes.. we tend to look for the most sparkling jewel and be blinded by it, not knowing that the most precious gems are those which posses simplicity and an innate glow.. in our search for someone better than the ones we had before, we forget the true meaning of love..

I see the couple are walkin` by
Feel like I
Don`t wanna be alone today
So glad no one can see what I hide
Deep inside
How it feels to be
The girl who never gets the right guy
Tell me why
When there`s so much I`ve got to give
I wake up reaching out in the night
Ready to hold him tight
`Til I realize
That nobody is there

(CHORUS.)
When will it be me?
When will I be the one
Somebody`s dreaming of?
When`s it gonna be?
When will I find my heart
Lyin` inside the arms
That never let me go?

I`d really like to know
When will it be me?

(VERSE2.)
My friends seem to have all the love
(Feels like love.)
Knocks on their door and walks right in
I know that I am worthy of what I`ve been wishing for
I can`t wait no more
Love`s nowhere to be found

(CHORUS.)

(HOOK.)
Feeling his tender touch
(Lying in his arms.)
Talkin` bout forever together
Givin` him all of my love
That`s been trying to break free

Don`t wanna be alone
No more
I`m telling you what I need
I want someone who loves me for me
And when will it be?
Wonder when will it be?

(CHORUS.)

I ask myself
When will it be me?

I like it when it rains.. I'm like the rain.. :) You can count on me when your sky gets dark and cloudy.. jeeshsh! some people seem to think I'm the other way around.. haha! :) well anyway, before we get to something else, here's what i did today..

I jumped out of bed at 7 am.. i was late.. way late.. my cell biology class starts at 8am and there i was still yawning.. i sped-up along the hi-way and lucky me, i got to school safe and sound.. :) i got there 15 minutes late.. wait! stop that dirty thought.. i took a bath.. i just did it fast..! then, i sat beside my friends and got my cell biology grade.. it was ok.. i was expecting to have a really really low grade but still i think i managed to pull the low ones up.. though my grade wasn't desirable, i felt good.. i don't know why but i felt good.. maybe its because i know that i can still do better and have the grade that i like.. :) I mean, it's a saturday class and it starts at 8am! i really don't like getting up so early.. i'm used to getting up at 12 noon.. yes, really.. :)

The class ended.. my friends and i took off.. we went to Larry's dorm to pick-up Pop's amplifier.. the guard at the gate of the dorm village wouldn't let me in so i did a u-turn and caused traffic.. haha :) man! the road was too skinny! i had to reverse a lot of times.. finally the guard allowed us to go in when larry spoke to him.. i got the amp! :) i did my duty for the day and now i'm off to nowhere..

I was with my bestfriend reng and my very good friend angela the whole afternoon.. we decided to eat at the mall and stroll.. at the activity center was an audition.. Pinoy Pop Superstar auditions.. i was supposed to audition but i forgot (that's really nice kai!).. with a lot going on right now, that's the last thing i should remember.. i bumped into Riza in front of a shirt shop.. she was with her mom.. i congratulated her for passing our screenings and she was thankful for it.. :) I'm beginning to like this kid.. very talented and knows what the meaning of "respect" is.. i asked her about what they did the previous night and told her the reason why i wasn't able to come.. her mom was also within the conversation.. she told me something which i kept on pondering on.. these were her words, she was referring to me and was at this time speaking to Riza: "May personality sya a.. dapat sumali ka jan (Pinoy Pop) yan ang mga hinahanap nila".. she was the first person to tell me that.. i don't wanna boast about it but i really liked that compliment.. :) it made me feel liked.. all the while i thought i was the type of person who has no style, no originality, no personality.. but whew! that was awesome! :)

after that super meet-and-greet incident, my friends and i stayed at the mall for a few more minutes then drove-off to another destination.. we went to the police station to pick-up the police report from last night (refer to the previous post).. unfortunately, we failed to do that.. the officer who did it won't be around until 9pm.. we then decided to go..

with a half-full gasoline tank, we again fled.. i was very much undecisive on whether i should just go home or go somewhere else.. im pretty impulsive and as usual, impulse prevailed! :) we went to Ruins.. somewhere along BF.. i love going there, buying DVD's, eating choles.. choles is a term which my bestfriend coined to refer to chicharong bulaklak 'cos its really bursting with bad cholesterol or LDL (low-density lipoprotein) haha :) a little something i learned from Dr. Fonollera.. i bought a DVD as usual.. romantic comedy.. :) i love romantic comedies 'cos u can fall in love with the story and laugh at the same time.. :)

it was around 5pm when we decided to go.. i dropped my bestfriend at her house.. i really needed to go to the bathroom to answer to the persistent call of nature.. :) Bes went to the mall (again) as i went home.. rain has been pouring all day and i was freezing to death.. :) i lowered my thermostat and continued to daang hari.. traffic was fast there.. when i reached molino, to my surprise, the cars weren't moving! i decided to go through Bahayang Pag-Asa.. i was quite reluctant at first because i don't know that route much.. i chose the alternate route instead of the traffic.. i thought i got it right.. but turns-out i ended up in daang-hari again! :) i went back and decided to endure the very heavy traffic.. i just sang with the radio tunes to kill the boredom.. my dad called me up asking me to make reservations for island cove tonight.. my parents are there at this very moment.. after a very exhausing driving experience i was finally home.. i watched the video that i bought.. it feels nice to watch a home movie when its raining.. Bum! :)

I Had Fun

Heya! :) had fun 2day.. khit na nakabunggo kmi nila ja ng car.. c aki ang nabunggo nmin at ang koche nyang pula.. haha :) aiun.. bbyaran ng participation fee but ewan ko, i'm glad we have surpassed this experience! :) ksma ang friendships! :) we really can move mountains.. wlang iwanan pare! woohoo! :) anyway, d n ko nkaattend sa meeting nmin with our probees.. so sayang kc i rily wanna mit them lalo n ung crush ni lhen.. haha :) ang saya tlga! sana lng mapatawad ako ng pop sa hndi pg-attend knina.. :( haha :) ok lng un! mas importante ung gnwa ko.. :) tawa lng kmi ng tawa nila bes knina.. ang angas kc nung kasama ni aki n guy.. labas-pasok p sya sa presinto tpos binubuklat ung police report yta un.. ayan 2loy napagalitan! hehehe! puro yabang kc e.. i hate people like that.. d n lng tumahimik wla nmang mggawa.. pumunta c papa dun sa presinto to rescue us! aiun.. ok nman.. nabasa c papa.. para syang basang sisiw! :) haha :) knwen2 ko ky papa ung gngwa nung mayabang n lalaki n kasama ni aki.. sbe nya pg nangulit dw kukutusan nya para dw kcng c jed.. haha :)

Jaja's mom called-up my dad.. c mama ang nkasagot.. akala ko tinarayan ni mother c tita.. haha :) ng-worry ako bakla! hndi nman pla yta.. haha :) teka, rewind muna ng konti.. when i got home sbe ko kay mama "ma, na-presinto nnman ako!" she laughed! :) kc b nman nung ng-workshop kmi sa batangas napunta dn ako s presinto with pop band kc inaway kmi ng mga maaangas guys.. binugbog ung guys ng pop.. wawa tlga.. well anyway, back to our topic.. :) it was really a nice experience lalo n pg u have ur friends to share it with.. :) wala kong masabi sa friendships! rain or shine! khit mabasa sa ulan basta sama-sama ok lng.. :)

The moon is a very pretty sight at night.. you can look at it and see how beautifully it is sculpted into a full round circle.. A full round circle that glows above everything else.. While in awe with the view, i can't help but wonder how certain things in my life turn out to be like the distance between me and the moon.. I can just look at it but not touch it.. I can just watch how it glows magnificently but can't feel the warmth of it..

I have loved him for too long.. people say that we are meant for each other but we can't seem to have our paths cross.. i long to feel his love and his care but i can't.. i can only look and envy his love for another.. though it kills to see that his smiles aren't for me, i feel happy for him..

There was a time in our friendship where i thought we had mutual feelings.. I had someone in my life at that time.. i can't tell how I felt for him then.. but I was pretty sure that i liked him.. i denied how I felt but the more I lied about my feelings the more they persisted.. next thing I knew, I was in love at the wrong place and at the wrong time..

I became more hopeless as my feelings got more intense.. by the time that my recent relationship ended, he already had someone in his life.. i didn't feel much grief because i know that he's happy and that finally he found what he was looking for.. just last night our group got together.. he was with her.. i watched them from a slight distance.. he slowly kissed her forehead.. a slow gentle kiss that only love can provoke.. i just looked at him as he planted that kiss on her.. all i could do was look.. look and do nothing.. look but not touch.. just look and adore his distant glow like the moon's..